What's a mother to do?

Yesterday was Day 10 of Tristan's round of antibiotics to clear up his UTI. It seemed to me that it must be gone - he was his normal happy self, he was sleeping well, no more tell tale signs of infection. Then this morning I change his diaper, and lo and behold, there is blood in his urine again. He goes back to the doctor tomorrow, but I can't help already starting the freak out in my head. And I can just see it now, I'm going to go in, they'll take another urine sample and refer me to a pediatrician. All of this culminating with my head exploding because I cannot stand the stress of waiting for bad news.

I'm feeling a bit beaten down this morning. I just want him to be happy and healthy, that is all any mother wishes for her child. So why can't I make him better? If his UTI is in fact still there, I think I'm going to go see a naturopath and explore all of our options.

I hate to think that he's hurting and can't tell me what's wrong. It seems like such a blessing and a curse to be responsible for your child's welfare. It is such a gift, but such a weight on your shoulders to know that the choices you make, or don't make, could affect them in the future.

All I can do right now is wait....and that quite frankly SUCKS.